It is hard to believe that on June 30th Dave and I will have been married for 26 years. We were talking not long ago that the years have gone by so fast....so many wonderful memories. He still gives me a hard time that I took the words "obey" out of our vows. There is just no way that I could have kept that one.......
Today I felt the weight of our vows so deeply in my heart..."to love, honor, and cherish thru sickness and thru health" ....after visiting with doctors and praying for guidance, I have decided to cease cancer treatments and bring Dave home. Hospice has already been to our house and he has a bed by ours so that we can still sleep together at night. A nurse will be out tomorrow to assess his health needs further so that we can be sure that he is comfortable. It is the hardest decision that I have ever had to make and although my heart feels heavy, I know that it is the right decision.
Dave has fought this cancer so bravely, but he is tired. He no longer has the ability to speak and it is hard for him to swollow. He does still follow what we say because he can follow directions or nod. I just want him to be here in the house that we built together where we can continue to make memories with our kids and our friends.
Today as the ambulence brought him home (he is too weak to travel by car), reality set in for me. The kids are going to take turns staying with me at night. I will cherish whatever time we have left, his love has been the greatest gift in my life.
Blessings to all who have helped us walk this journey........
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