Here it is after midnight and once again I find myself thinking of you (Dave). I have thought about you all day.....I have thought about the little things... the way you always kissed me hello and goodbye....your smile....your blue eyes.... your voice...... We counted our years together in anniversaries, but we kept track in school years as well, ......it is funny that we kept track that way!
This morning I attended the "year end" Inservice as I have for the last 26 years, but today was very different because you were not there. I felt you there, I spoke for you there, but you were beginning a journey, one that I can only imagine.
So now the counting takes on a new perspective.....anniversaries without you....school years counted without you......and I am beginning a journey as well, and it is a journey without you.
In times of trouble we found enormous strength and faith in one another and I am going to need you to help me thru this. I know that you told me that "feeling sorry for yourself doesn't make the situation any better"......so I am going to try not to disappoint you.....I will remain strong for our kids.......I will listen for your voice, and I will try to gain courage and confidence each day as I face whatever new experience comes my way. .....once again it will be just you and me.....new beginnings for us both.....
This is the end of my blog...it was meant to be a testimony to your life, Dave, and to your courage. I hope it was a testament to the deep and unending love that we shared as well, a love that your death has only interrupted until we can be together again.
Blessings to all of the friends that have been with us each day and that have made each moment better.
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